Wrong Direction!!!

Weight change this week +.6 lbs

Weight loss total to date – 5.6 lbs

Well, my scale seems to be broken – it says I’m heading in the wrong direction….Okay. The scale’s fine.  It’s me that’s heading up instead of down. I’m not sure exactly what’s up. The period that’s been looming for a couple of weeks finally hit me last night (3 weeks late argh!) so that may be part of it. I’ve been doing a great job with keeping my food journal and measuring food. I have had a couple of indulgences, but earlier in the week I was down 1.5 lbs so I don’t think that’s it. Heck, I even exercised a couple of times! I’m not too worried, I’m sure I’m on the right track and having lost 55 pounds since my kids were born, I know better than to let a glitch derail me. Next week will be better. Sorry to effect the group number though.

I’ve had a major triumph this week. In a fit of optimism? insanity? something, I signed up to take my kids to a Gym and Swim class at the local Y. We start out playing games in the gym and then move to the pool. Because I’ll be flying solo for this adventure and need to be as organized as possible while trying to manage 2 toddlers, I decided I need to wear my bathing suit  under my clothes. This meant buying a new bathing suit – one without the lovely skirt that hides (at least some of) my unsightly cellulite. And,  I only had 4 days to find this new suit. Now, ordinarily I would send off to the larger woman catalog and find some nice big boxy number, but as time was an issue and I’ve been feeling a lot of wiggle room in my size 20 jeans, I headed over to the mall. Lo and behold I found a size 18 suit in the normal sized people store that fits me!! It’s a little snug, not horrifically so, but there’s some incentive there to lose another 5 lbs and have it be truly comfortable. Still, I’m psyched.

Frankly, the idea of wearing a bathing suit in public is more daunting to me than managing my 2 monkeys in the pool. We were not very active family growing up. I didn’t learn to ride a bike until I was in 4th grade. I didn’t learn to swim until I was in high school and had to pass a swimming test to graduate. I’m still not super comfortable in the water.  I don’t ever remember seeing my mom  in a bathing suit. She was a lovely woman, but suffered from a lot of health  issues related to her size.  I am determined to leave a different legacy for my kids. I am committed to being active with them and having them learn to participate in a wide variety of sports so that they can find what they like to do and live a healthy lifestyle. So tomorrow I’m donning my new suit and heading to the Gym and Swim. The good news is , everyone will be so busy watching the antics of my tots that they probably won’t even notice me in a suit.

Here’s a new goal: to feel comfortable in my body in a bathing suit.